walking in circles

its funny how a few good days can just suddenly fade into almost dust and ashes after just one sickening bad day. its crazy right?

i don't mean to be bitter, but its as if you wake up and you wished you had never woken up at all. it wasn't even such a bad day, the day i had, it was pretty average, but the gut feeling inside of me kept me from making the best of it, which kinda screwed my mood for a performance today. all i was was stressed out frustrated and serious. blehhhhh.
its one of those lousy days where you do almost everything that normally cheers you up, or even made you real happy the past few days and none o' thm seemed to work nope nada. and the bitter thoughts, the feeling that eats me up; turns almost every smile into a frown.

i could always turn to you for solace, your arms were my sanctuary, you'd turn everything around; make the earth spin in reverse to suit my condition. but i no longer can. you're absent, and as much as i hate the fact, i chose for this sink or swim situation. sometimes i still wonder how we ended up this way. however, i still stand firm with my decision. guess the decision comes with the whole heavy blah of pain that pulls me down like weights but ironically instills an occasional idea that my insides are hollow.

dealing with it. totally sucks. but dealing with it.
looking forward to better days =)
at least, days less gloomy moody and blue =P

Bladder Control

Okay, i know i haven't blogged in ages, and what i should be doing, is updating about how i've been, what's been up, blahblahblah, but its my blog so i'll do what i want with it tooo bad xP haha! just kidding, no offence.

Its just, well, its kinda awkward to recall rewrite revise everything thats passed over these few months. *coughs* FEW months..... o.O.. so i'll just start with some random regular post.i'm a tad rusty, but heck my posts weren't all that exciting to begin with >.<
okay so here goes... *takes a deep breath*... =)

Here was the highlight of the day! =D
the Anti-Bryan Yong Strike!
*inside joke*
no offence Bry. =) but you ditched us! you can't just ditch your best pals as an when you like!! =D

So from the beginning, i woke up at about mid-day, and i had no lunch at home. neither did Sze Hou. we went to seng heong's chicken rice shop!! =D because it tastes awesome!! =P i would upload pictures of it, but he won't let me upload any pictures of him so =( here's proof of that::

clearly, he doesn't want his picture taken so... lalalalala moving on.





Went for a lecture in MMU Cyberjaya =D about "Fields and Waves Electromagnetics"
quiiiiite interesting.... o.O i'd be lying if i said it was reeeally fascinating, so interesting will do. =)

OH OH OH this is the most hilarious part of the day =P
see here people, for this is the turtle; that pee-d on sze hou's pants! xP

Darn, i had really funny photos of his reaction and everything, him being gay hitting Twei and stuff, but if i disclose it here, he'll probably never speak to me =( as it is i kinda gave him a pretty tough time yesterday too so yeah. i'm gonna cut him some slack ;)

Here's the turtle's owner with Mun Li. =)

Here's the turtle's owner, with Mun Li and the boy responsible for the turtle's bladder exploding and excreting wastes on to Hou's pants =P

And here's what Bryan should be jealous about. =P

like i said, you probably won't understand why it was such a nice day =)
also because i'm rushing to finish this post, i've to go yumcha in 10 minutes and shower before that >.<

Anyway, about yesterday, it felt like, like when you're standing in the park, there's this sudden cool breeze that comes along, touches your face so gently and all you can do is take it in and just breathe? or like when you've been having such a rough week or so, you take a trip to get away from it all, yet you're still bothered by everything you've left behind; until when you least expect it, you witness something so serene, like some magnificent view at some secluded beach (non-polluted!) or just... just something damn cool lah i'm too lazy to think of other analogies xP haha i ruined the moment =S.

anyway, that's how i felt like. yesterday. it wasn't special or out of this world or anything, it was pretty ordinary. but still, sometimes all you need is ordinary, to make everything feel better, taste smell seem better, makes everything fresh... =)

In Time

This blog is being revived. Haha. After one friggin' year.
Currently under renovation =P
Will post soon...

no more zees

i know this blog hasn't been updated for ages. =/ i'm sorry. doubt many people visit my blog anymore. =/ aiks.

i ain't giving excuses or anything. i know my holidays were just up, and yeah for every blogger, its the perfect opportunity to update.

however, technically i only had about four days of relaxation. =/. my mom was admitted to the hospital for a torn ligament in her backbone. something similar to a slip disk and now can't walk nor even sit up without feeling excrutiating pain. aiks.

furthermore, my smartypants brother infested the computer with a worm (autorun.inf) which i spent 5 hours to manually get rid off. =) applaud me, a computer dumbass such as i learnt something new =p. hehe.

bbbbbuuutttt hey,,.. every dumbass isn't perfect. the computer's speed is still rather faulty. darnit. and i'm afraid the worm isn't a 100% gone, just hiding, or in biological terms, undergoing "antigenic concealment" xP. so, i am really sorry that i can't upload the pictures i took during the "ChingYuEricKokSeng" birthday bash. =P.

haha. so yeah. mind you, these aren't excuses, these are my reasons for not raising this blog from the dead sooner. take it or leave it. =P

till then.. have a nice day. =) i'm off to complete 10 days worth biology tutorials in two days. =/ wish me luck. sighs.

will be MIA for awhile again. =). in the mean time, have fun bloghopping to other greater blogs, just click on the links to your right. =) aishteruuusss people!

in cement or on tar

i know i tend to overreact sometimes.
and get all worked up on something some people may consider to be nothing much.
but hey, some other people may stress over what i myself consider to be nothing as well.
it did almost kill me, that i can't deny.
i mean, is it just me or am i really obsessing over nothing? seriously?
all i wanted to do was to walk away to somewhere i
could obtain peace of mind.
but no0o... you just couldn't leave me alone could you?
instead, you come after me and worse still,
letting me see you for the true idiot you really are;
your true colours,
by stepping into a pile of wet cement.
(-.-)"
LOL

i didn't know if i should have laughed or cried,
or cried from laughing. xD
i guess i couldn't have left you there now could i?
or could i?
you and your cluelessness and your grey coloured feet.
sigh, i guess even if i wanted to, i couldn't.
and being the accident prone being that i am,
i bet my guardian angel figured i should step into some cement too.
(=.-)
now that isn't funny.
stop laughing, you.
yes you.

hehe.

oh well, here's my statement:
you're the best. =)
really.
but;
whaaat an idiot!



here's something like it:

music to my ears: Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

sins and other things =)

haha.. people people... please proceed to this link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJEjB77Ld8M
and i assure you, you will not regret it. it IS worth your while.
however i do regret not performing with them T.T sighs. the routine looks so00oo cool =)
anyway, check it out.
its not a waste of time ^^


and so, the other things, right.. let's see, ive got my chemistry practical exam a.k.a cutting a hole in my wallet tomorrow
when i panic and break multiple test tubes/beakers/you know me haha =)

anyway, wish me luck.. =/

loner

sesat...
lost..
speechless.
i'm supposed to be there.
what the hell am i doing here.
its not what i want.
its not where i want to be.
what the hell am i doing here...
lost..
lonely.

but suddenly no =).
-Spla†z-
-RickEe-
-invoke-
-sucker-
[lol huining]
to save the day!
heehee... thank you.. =)
i feel so much better, don't know what i'd do without you. =P

Envious 18

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
ELLEN MELON CHUA
=D


love ya lots envy.. =)

we'll be together again soon xP ahem ahem vivalaSINS =P


lol i know it sounds so wrong but hey, you know me =P

hehe. happy sweet 18.. finally legal... hmmm... xP...
haha im kidding im kidding. =P


don't stress out so much by the by the by the way okay? =]